Lately I have been trying to push myself into having good days, but nothing has been working. I cut myself off from the world for about two weeks this month just trying to re-evaluate where I'm heading and where I want to be, and from that I have gained a fresh outlook on the people who I didn't need anymore and the people I can truly call my friends.
I think that when we find ourselves in these situations we immediately go running to find someone to help us figure everything out, which in my opinion is completely wrong. How are you ever going to be able to lean on yourself if when ever you hit a pothole in life you call your parents or buddies to come bail out out. I have gained a sense on self assurance and a vulnerability to the situations I get myself into. I feel when we finally find ourselves the rest of our lives will slowly unravel into something we could have never imagined, something so beautiful and mysterious that we will be at a loss for words.
I want to die knowing that I have people who actually care for me deeply and not just superficially or for worldly things. I want to leave a footprint that will fossilize and be re-discovered 100's of years after I am gone. I want to be known as Me and nobody else.
Think about where you are right now. Are you happy? Are your friends truly your "friends?" Are you headed on a path that you won't look back on in 10 years and wish you had turned left not right? Re-evaluate everything and ask yourself Are you happy with you?
I think that when we find ourselves in these situations we immediately go running to find someone to help us figure everything out, which in my opinion is completely wrong. How are you ever going to be able to lean on yourself if when ever you hit a pothole in life you call your parents or buddies to come bail out out. I have gained a sense on self assurance and a vulnerability to the situations I get myself into. I feel when we finally find ourselves the rest of our lives will slowly unravel into something we could have never imagined, something so beautiful and mysterious that we will be at a loss for words.
I want to die knowing that I have people who actually care for me deeply and not just superficially or for worldly things. I want to leave a footprint that will fossilize and be re-discovered 100's of years after I am gone. I want to be known as Me and nobody else.
Think about where you are right now. Are you happy? Are your friends truly your "friends?" Are you headed on a path that you won't look back on in 10 years and wish you had turned left not right? Re-evaluate everything and ask yourself Are you happy with you?
Justin, this is beautiful. I know we always joke and whatnot, but seriously, I love your thinking!
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Justin,
ReplyDeleteI never really say this, but I have enormous respect for you and your ability to truly pave your own path. Honestly, that feeling hasn't changed much since the 4th grade, rather it has simply evolved.
I'm glad you took the time to figure things out, but in my opinion you've never really wavered. You are who you are, and who you are is great. Don't ever doubt that.
I did start to doubt me because i felt like none of my friends were true friends and that I was the sideline friend who they could call in when ever they found it convenient. So I solved my issues there and now I would say I'm in a healing process trying to make myself "Me" again. I like where I'm going and I will not look back! and thanks both you you! :)
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